Every story has two sides

By | February 8, 2019

Every story has two sides, and in this new book, the epic love story between Kiera and Kellan is shown through his eyes.
All Kellan Kyle needs is his guitar, and some clean sheets of paper. Growing up in a house that was far from a home, he learned a hard lesson: You’re worthless. Now his life is comfortably filled with passionate music, loyal band mates, and fast women…until he meets her. 
Kiera makes him ache for more. Makes him feel for the first time that he’s worth more. But there’s one problem – she’s his best friend’s girl.
Just when Kellan thought his emotional defenses were rock solid, Kiera’s indecisive heart wreaks havoc on his soul, changing him forever. Losing Kiera is not an option.

I can’t remember the last time I read something that was purely the alternate POV of the same book…maybe it was Walking Disaster? Hmm I don’t remember, but the point is I don’t read those much because I don’t want there to be a risk of ruining the original version of the story. I took a leap of faith this time because of the hero Kellan Kyle. He’s one of my all-time favorite book boyfriends and there isn’t much I’m not willing to endure while reading if it means he’ll end up in a better and happy place. Because honestly? This book had many, many things that would normally drive me up a wall had I read it in another book.
I also want to say that if you’re reading this book expecting there to be ‘new stuff’ to be added to the original storyline of the Thoughtless trilogy, wrong mentality. When the author said Kellan’s POV of Thoughtless, she really meant that…you’re getting a rehash of book 1 in his view. At this point I would only recommend this book if it doesn’t matter to you that the plot is the same – you just want more Kellan, any way you can get it. I went into this book with that in mind, so my review won’t touch on the plot redundancies, because really, that’s not even supposed to be an issue.
Now about this book. It was a slow burn, a snooze fest, and an angsty rollercoaster ride all in one. Different sections of the book made me feel different things and by the end, I was just tired and exhausted from it all. First and foremost, reading about Kellan’s heartbreaking upbringing in his own voice downright hurt. The emotional scars his parents left on him were deep, leading him to feel this perpetual loneliness inside of him while on the outside he looked like a perfect golden angel. And yet for all his looks and charisma, he’s insecure about feeling, about emotion, and about love.
When Denny and Kiera enter the scene, the snooze fest sort of began. In Thoughtless, part of Kellan’s allure was the fact that I didn’t fully know his thoughts when Kiera did this or that and while it was pretty adorable and heartwarming to see the depth of his love and longing for her, I feel like the author exposed too much if that makes any sense. There are some things best left unsaid, and be open to the reader’s imagination instead, so I was a little discouraged to have to read EVERY single one of Kellan’s thoughts about Kiera this and Kiera that for half of the book. Honestly, these were the parts that drained the life out of me because Kellan’s world IS Kiera. His love for her blinded him to the rest of the world and in everything he does and sees, it’s all her, even when she’s not really his and to have to read about that kind of torment killed me.
There was one thing that really bothered me though, and it was a technical issue so nothing to do with the characters themselves. In my opinion, I think the author is weak with the male POV, and it’s the reason why I can’t bring myself to give this book at least 4 stars. I don’t say this to hurt her; it’s just an observation. Because when I read this book, there really was no difference in writing style or tone between this book and Thoughtless. Kellan must’ve hid his sensitivity very well because in here, he noticed the tiniest things like how eyes have different shades, he used flowery words like ‘blossomed,’ (do dudes really talk like that?), described looks and clothing to the finest detail, etc…all things that I’d normally read from the girl’s POV.
But in the end, I am glad and immensely thankful that I got to hear his side of the story. Most importantly, it made me understand him better as a person, and though I will always believe Kiera doesn’t deserve him, I now understand why he believes she is the one for him, something I could never accept even though I loved Thoughtless.
Because the plot itself is the same as before, I didn’t feel the same kind of intensity like I did when I read Thoughtless. However, Kellan Kyle himself will stir up enough emotions for you, and if you’re determined to read more about him rather than about the story as a whole, this book will probably be a winner for you.
Thoughtful is Kellan’s POV of Thoughtless. book 1 in the original trilogy. Even though it’s technically a standalone, I would not recommend reading this on its own. At the very least read Thoughtless.
ARC provided by Forever (Grand Central Publishing) via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.